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I'm begging you, whoever actually read this .
any psychiatrist or psychologist here, please contact me .
I'm desperate, I feel I reached the final breakdown .
There is no way back, There is no way to get the time back .

I wish I could enter into the psychiatrist's mind , the one who decided
that I'm having mental illness , a psychosis
and tell him that he's wrong, that he misunderstood me, that he misread me
and his decisions broke me up to the point where I feel my depression increases in very high speed, and explain him that everything happened because of my other mental ilness : depression .
I now recognize myself as depressed, not as a psychotic or schizophrenic .
I answered the wrong answers because I was feeling anxiety and stress because of all the questions that are going on, the question were out of proportion
They were not attached in any way to the way I actually feel .
I don't know exactly what I feel , I really can't even explain it to my-self, but I'm unhappy for a long time, but I'm not fucking hallucinating, and I know where I am ( aware of reality ) and I don't think that people checking me when they're watching at me, I know and realize that they are NOT playing a role in some secret organization for fuck sake, I just don't like when people are watching me JESUS . sometimes it does freak me out, but not because they're gathering information about me or something LOL .

Jesus , I'm really done here . I see nobody helps me
I'm feeling anxious, stressed, dizziness . and most of all
I feel LOST . the only person I wanted to talk to , is my ex-psychologist
הקב"נית בצבא , שאמרה לצערה שלא אוכל לראות אותה שוב .
It really made things worst, because now I have to face with the fact I won't see her again . . . .

Can't help it . Goodbye hope to see comments in the near future cuz I'm lost

תכתוב בפורום "פסיכיאטריה ילדים", ענו לי שם בשניה וחצי... (הם גם פסיכיאטרים לכל דבר ולכן זה לא משנה לך)